Mortaljive: The Rest is Silence

There is no still point in all the Universe, and that is the rock upon which I stand

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

WTF?


we were born inside the shadow, born inside the night
we are also said to be in the silver shafts of light
someone else was certain
we arrived upon a train
the tracks of which have vanished in the mists that follow rain

does it really matter
the how and when and where?
is this really so profound
we ask it everywhere?
or is it just perfuctory
a place to mark a check
and what we're really asking
is what the hell and what the heck?



Monday, November 06, 2017

Sutherland


take a bullet in that cheek of yours
take another in your eyes
lasers made of lead and children's laughter
you can hear them in their cries

don't know what anyone can do
we have tried to stop the fires
men are coming at the break of dawn
dropping shrapnel on the choir

and I
blame you and I blame me
and I
drink deliverance from a jar
i cannot divine
i won't take the time
i won't deliver 
not a star

you're not very funny at the moment
your jokes are falling like rocks
all the bodies are limp in the pews
no applause to save the flocks

tell me, preacher, tell me
who is right and who is wrong?
the preacher's daughter in a pool of blood
i sit in darkness with a song

and I
blame you and I blame me
and I
drink deliverance from a jar
i cannot divine
i won't take the time
i won't deliver 
not a star


Sunday, September 17, 2017

Nothing left to do


we invented a whole country
we had to fudge the numbers, that's true
we were fighters, we were winners
we were always coming through

we had glory, we had blessings
fields of green and mighty oceans blue
we had harvests and such splendor
now, there's nothing left to do

(chorus)
nothing left to do 
nothing left to do
nothing left for me 
nothing left for you
nothing begets nothing
and that ain't hardly something
nothing, with nothing left to do

we killed natives, we killed soldiers
we burned the forests with our flames
we built a country out of wonder
we never had much time to ponder blame

we built cities full of glory
our country strong, it grew and grew and grew
we barely paused to wonder
now, there's nothing left to do

(repeat chorus)

now, the past is getting anxious
now, a reckoning is near
our stories can no longer
save us from the ravages of fear

now, the boatman wants a dollar
better pay it up, there's more coming through
better go off to greener pastures
now, there's nothing left to do

(repeat chorus)


Sunday, September 10, 2017

In which regret gets a boner


i didn't learn to read the tea leaves
i didn't learn to sanitize
i didn't want nobody to deter me
i didn't want to grammarize

i just wanted to
hold you naked
i just wanted to
kiss your lips
i just wanted 
to trace my lineage
along the borders
of your hips
take you in sips
i just wanted 
my skin in yours

i didn't sing to you in denver
we didn't dance in timbuktu
if i could just have one more hour
i'm sure that i could break on through
break on through

i just wanted
to pulse like krishna
i just wanted
to gain your altar
i wouldn't falter
i would hold on
and you could let it go
when your waves crashed
i would surrender
just like a knave
i am yours

i didn't make you any dinner
i didn't fill your desire
i couldn't swear but
i am no winner
i was always just a guy
always just a guy

i didn't learn to read the tea leaves
i didn't learn to sanitize
i didn't want nobody to deter me
i didn't want to grammarize

i just wanted to
hold you naked
i just wanted to
kiss your lips
i just wanted 
to trace my lineage
along the borders
of your hips
take you in sips
i just wanted 
my skin in yours

***




Tuesday, August 08, 2017

Sunset Beach



did i ever tell you about the time
i rode into the clouds
and soared beyond the shores

did i ever sing to you
how much i love you
beyond the shores

you were wearing a princess gown
flowing down
like fire made of rain
fire made of rain
we made love in hidden caves
fell about the crashing waves
running naked on the sand
i held your hand
laughing

empty beaches in the west
the sun rose up
we never dressed
burnt by the sun
it was so much fun

dragon princess
summer queen
fantasy 
entering

those summer nights 
those summer nights
so long ago
i miss you now
i feel you now
you are gone anyway
but my darling
but my love
we are running in my dreams
and the waves
bow to us
and the gulls
call to us
and the sun
is burning us

you were wearing a princess gown
flowing down
like fire made of rain
fire made of rain
we made love in hidden caves
fell about the crashing waves
running naked on the sand
i held your hand
laughing

***


Monday, July 17, 2017

She gives her daughter a ride at 1:00 a.m.


she drives her car 
she drives her car 
wipes the sleep from her eyes
the night remains
the night remains
the keys that opened the door
those keys don't work no more

mother, sister, daughter 
like everyone else, like no other
give her a ride at one a.m.
amen
give her a ride at one a.m.

sit in the car, wait in the car
her little girl ain't little no more
was that a shadow at the end of the lot?
just some kid connecting the dots?
gotta drive her baby home
five days in a row
connecting the dots

the car is dented and the car is faint
needs a makeover, needs some paint
the car is an angel, heaven sent
laughed at by the 1%
people inside don't really care
everybody grinding their private gears

the landlord said they gotta go
life is a business, didn't you know?
the great unknown, the great unknown

she drives her car 
she drives her car 
wipes the sleep from her eyes
the night remains
the night remains
the keys that opened the door
those keys don't work no more

***












Friday, July 14, 2017

The Eternal Cafe

I saw Jesus in a restaurant
the waitress said
he could order whatever he wanted to...

Jesus smiled and folded his menu up
folded it again
in the form of a beautiful pup

the waitress blushed
the waitress cried

I saw Buddha at the county fair
silent and so still
the children went spinning around him so

Buddha said "step right up...
into this empty cup"
and then stood laughing on the Ferris Wheel

the wheel was turning
the wheel of everything

someone doubted that the moon was round
until it fell to the ground
it hardly even made a sound
when it came down
when it came down

I saw Vishnu sleeping at the side of the road
dreaming of a car
that would drive him to his waking state

Vishnu knows how to step on the gas
and make it all go
it was his memory, it was his show

I saw Coyote with all her cactus friends
patient in the night
she made a fateful cry, then winked an eye

She saw the sun rising in the lightning sky
and headed for the hills
people say the way she walks gives them chills
she gives them chills

someone doubted that the moon was round
until it fell to the ground
it hardly even made a sound
when it came down
when it came down

I'll meet you at the Eternal Cafe
maybe next Saturday
maybe I will recognize the way you hide

I know this waitress there who's really sweet
so patient and kind
she will bring you anything, given enough time

I asked her once what did she think
about the sun and moon
she just laughed and danced about the room

When you walk into the morning light
with so much to do
save one little bit of it just for me and you

someone doubted that the moon was round
until it fell to the ground
it hardly even made a sound
when it came down
when it came down

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Bubba Bug


damn your stupid nightmares
damn your stupid dreams
damn the way you rock and roll
and make the ladies scream

damn you got a shadow
it crawls across the land
to join the other shadows
lying in the sand

***

Sunday, May 28, 2017

This Old Man



this old man
he don't pray
he don't toss no stones
into the gray

this old man
he don't cry
he don't genuflect
don't even try
don't even try

this old man
this old man
with the sun in his eyes

this old man
don't meditate
he doesn't ponder
what to use for bait

this old man
lost his seeds
he will not plant them
no worry beads
no worry beads

this old man
this old man
with the sun in his eyes

is it an awful thing
is it so terrible
if we are criminals
suspense unbearable
is it a paradox
to know and not to see
this old man
a door without a key

this old man
he don't pray
he don't toss no stones
into the gray

this old man
he don't cry
he don't genuflect
don't even try
don't even try

this old man
this old man
with the sun in his eyes

***


Saturday, May 06, 2017

take me far away


take me down the muddy mud track
take me down the dirty road
i would like to hold your hand there
i would like to see Tom Joad

i would tell him things are different
i would tell him they're the same
he was speaking to the chorus
before the fire left the flame

take me down to the cathedral
i will sit inside and sing
tell me jesus is a savior
i will believe most anything

(chorus)
take me, take me down
take me, take me all the way
take me, take for instance
for instance
take me far away
take me far away

i will walk to denver
greet it with an open heart
greetings to all who live in denver
hope i arrive before it's dark

dragons do not fly in denver
they walk around like everyone else
yield to them the right of way, yes
and everything should turn out well

(chorus)
take me, take me down
take me, take me all the way
take me, take for instance
for instance
take me far away
take me far away

take me down to the cathedral
i will sit inside and sing
tell me jesus is a savior
i will believe most anything

(chorus)
take me, take me down
take me, take me all the way
take me, take for instance
for instance
take me far away
take me far away

***